3Ds

Hi! ho! yeah, the bad blogger in me strikes again! Yesterday,  I asked R what supplement I need to take para magawa ko lahat ng gagawin ko? he said, "Kiss ko". Haha ang supportive talaga db? Oh well, where else can I find a guy that will love me like what he did noh?! I'm so blessed. I don't have the right to complain. 

Speaking of being blessed, I am so thankful na wala akong family na naapektuhan ni Yolanda, its so devastating. Grabe, hindi ko makayang manuod ng news, nakaka-awa. Oh well, this post should be possitive and full of encouragement since yun ang badly needed ko ngaun. If time will allow me, I will donate or personally give some breastmilks sa mga babies thats the only thing I can share aside from prayers. 

On a lighter note, baby D is picking up words so fast! and sadly i'm missing most of that moments (nega again!). On days na hindi ako nagmamadali, or maaga ako nakakauwi I get to interact with him. 

Me: Daddy Panget

D: Ayaw!

Me: E anu? 

D: Bogie! (Pogi)

Me: Ok, mommy panget!

D: hhmmhm 

*Amph! may favoritism na agad?! haha

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D: Kati - Kati - Kati

L: Saan? Wala naman? 

D: Dito oh!

*haha sumasagot na talaga siya? 

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Me: Goodnight D!

D: Okie

*haha 

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He can now enumerate different mode of transportations like: truck, jeep, car, bus/tayo (not baby talk)

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Me: Whats your name? 

D: Deiong Tihlo

*hahaha

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Out of nowhere he will do: 

D: Ina (then will kiss you sa forehead, like what Inang do to him)

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While taking a bath...
Inang: Ay naliligo pala ang gwapo kong apo
D: Talagahhh???
*haha wala makapagsabi saan niya natutunan yan!
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Me: Kainin mo yan, masarap yan!
D: Talagahhh????
*cute noh? kasi baby pa siya, paglaki pa niya at sumagot ng ganyan ewan ko nalang! lol
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Me: Whats the capital of Philippines?
D: Nila (Manila)
Me: of China?
D: Benjing (Beijing)
Me: of Japan?
D: Koyo (Tokyo)

*Lolo G said, "yan na agad agad alam niya?! hindi pwede ABC or 123 muna?!" Haha kagagawan ko yan!

He's so cute! I swear! kahit anung pagod ko pag uwi ng bahay, nawawala talaga. Baby D is my source of inspiration to do well, to achieve more and work harder.

And why I am so MIA again?! a lot of things are happening lately so I am so lost. But I am getting the hang of if na. Imagine a week without a rest day? I can't imagine! nakakaloka because hindi ako sanay na walang sabath (signs of aging!), nakaka-depress because I have little time to spend and play with D and R during weekends, and honestly I am so overwhelmed with all the things that I need and must learn for the next two months.

I admit there are times that I wanna walk-out... and sleep and eat and sleep. The devil in my head is telling me that I don't need what I am working, spending money and time for . But the angel said "You are working hard for it for 2 years and 2 months nalang susuko ka pa ba?! This is for your own personal development and your family's future". Loka-loka lang ano?!

And thankfully, my sanity is back. I am back and I am willing to go back to track. I need to escape to my comfort zone now. It's killing me and making me expire soon.  I need to act now.

And now I am holding on to what my professor told us last meeting. All we need is 3D. And thats exactly what I need.

1. DISCIPLINE - I know! I always come to classes late and go home early. Thank you so much to my friends/classmates who reserve seats for me and kept me updated to important announcements I always miss.  I have a study plan that is left untouched for a week now. R hated me for making him buy lots of books that until now neatly covered in our room. And as much as I want to study the time I reached home, I have D who wants to play with mommy and sleep in my comfort so nakakatulog na din ako until morning. I have a lot of downloaded instructional videos that are left unwatched. What will I do?

2. DETERMINATION - This, I know I have a lot! R and baby D are my source of determination. Whenever I am so tired to read and study I just think of our future. Really helps a lot.

3. DEDICATION - Until now, I'm in doubt. I love to teach, but I am not still sure if I am fit for that. But, I wanna do it to prove something for myself. This is for me. I wanna prove to myself that I can do it.

And I know, I will do it with His guidance. I should not be afraid. I can do it.

Mommy Sweetie is back!!!

I know! I've been MIA for more than 2 weeks and forgive me for my negative vibes last post. Work and school was hell. Now I understand the sentiments of parents working hard to send their children to school, working students who wish for more extra hours a day and of working mothers. At kung ang drama ni R ay "ang hirap magpaaral ng matanda" ako naman ay "anghirap mag-aral ng matanda ka na!" hahaha. R sent me to school and because my semester is officially over yesterday... I am now waiting for my reward, my Tory Burch Bag! I worked hard for that, yan ang motivation ko everytime pagod na pagod na ako from work at may papers or exam ako haha #kababawantalaga.

I am now so near, yet so far in my impulsive dream. When I was young, I really wanted to be a journalist specifically a broadcast journalist yan talaga ang ultimate dream ko. But when I entered college I realized I wasn't for that field and enjoyed being in Development Work. I envisioned myself leading an organization where I can help and empower Filipinos makabayan talaga ang peg ko. But fate has other plans, just before my graduation, my family needed me to support them financially so I need to look for a job immediately and landed to a position in training/hr function and the rest was history. I realized that training has a lot of opportunities to offer, but it needs constant improvement, there will be a time that you need to reinvent yourself so you will always have the competency. At dun ko na naisip and impulsive dream ko, to be a licensed teacher. And let's see what will this new field has in store for me. For now, I am waiting for my grades, and then I'll see if I should take the LET exam this January na, #prayinghardforsign.

Anyway, why is my last post so negative nga ba? this blog is supposed to be full of positive vibes and full of happy memories of my family and baby D. Ayun na nga, I'm back to travelling again, well I like to travel, thats why I love my job pero iba na pala if you are a mom na. It's so hard to leave baby D even if 2-3 days lang, specially when he's sick. I felt so bad that I wasn't there to comfort baby D in times that he needed me most and sobrang nakakaguilty when I went home with a pattottie baby and muntik na ako hindi makilala #workingmommyblues talaga. Iniisip ko nalang, I need to work to provide him all he need and all he want. Yun lang, we know naman that material things are not enough so I made sure that every weekend or nightime is a quality time with baby D. Minsan lang sila dadaan sa cutest stage na yan, and I don't wanna miss it kasi i'm studying, kasi i'm working, kasi i'm tired ayoko ng gnun so now I'm really.. really learning how to handle everything and muntik ko na nga makalimutan may asawa din pala ako haha buti nalang mahal na mahal ako ni R. (love you babe..!)

The last 2 weeks was so eventful, I had a lot of learnings, realizations and cute stories of baby D that I want to share. And sana the long weekends coming and my migration to another lappy will enable me to update this nearly forgotten online diary of mine. I have a lot of plans. Sabi ko nga, I need to reinvent myself, haha sana naman this is not yet a sign of midlife crisis. No not yet.

Today, I realized that we all have the power to say no if we feel or know that we have reached our limits. We are just humans that has limitations and we should know when to stop.  Kagaya ng pagkain sa eat-all-you-can dinner, you should know when to stop even if there are a lot of food choices that you wanted to try. There will always be another time and one should know how to prioritize, kung ayaw mo magsuffer ng impacho haha. Seriously, we can only take so much within our plate, and getting work more than your limit will just compromise other work. So we should learn how to say NO.

Laters,

G