Heavy Heart and Bruises

Last night, I slept with a very heavy heart. I don't know what to feel or what to do, I am contemplating why? what did I do wrong? or what should I do to protect baby D. I may sound overacting, but trust me I did my best not to scold anyone from the household, maybe that is the reason I have a very heavy heart even this morning. As a mom, I cannot contain my anger, but I know, I may have my lapses too. 

Baby D is in the stage where he runs all the time, discover and explore everything! As in super likot naman talaga. In seconds his climbing in the table, chairs, running away from you. And I usually tagged his minor bruises in his feet, legs and elbow as parte ng kanyang paglaki. But last night, I went home to a toddler with a large bruise on his nose and face. I felt like crying, he's not "bogi" (pogi) anymore. But what made my heart broken is he even managed to demonstrate to mommy how he fell and point where is the exact place, so innocent that he didn't even know how mommy is worried. I am overacting, I know, because aside from the bruises, he's still so malikot and active, parang walang nangyari. I still received a powerhug and lots of kisses from my dear baby boy. But the overacting mommy in me thinking a lot of what ifs? hay.. 

Do you have any suggestions how can I prevent accidents at home? Our house is already childproof, but his favorite toy car is not. I am now full of questions what to do? what to buy? what to choose? and what to tell to A and Lola on how they could minimize baby D's accidents. Share please?

G, 

Baby D @ 21 months!

Baby D turned 21 months this October, he's growing so fast and learning like a sponge. He's also like a parrot that imitates whatever we say, he's turning into a so adorable baby that brings so much happiness into our lives. If only we can slow down time noh? and if only we can pause time so that they will be forever  our little cutie baby. Anyway, stage mommy here wants to document baby D's 21st month milestones (a.k.a kalokohan). 

Our little boy is still so possessive kay mommy, so whenever he see me and daddy R hugging and cuddling, hindi pwedeng hindi siya iiyak and sasali. KJ sa intimate moments.  

One day, we are looking for baby D, and we found him inside the box of his diapers. I know! hindi kami galit sa diapers noh?! That brand is also good for daytime use.

And who doesn't love chuckie? But weeks ago, I banned this kiddie drink because D always caught tonsillitis and sobrang hyper. One day, I went home early than the usual and saw this in the fridge. Binibilhan pala siya ng lola niya. #spoliedapotalaga

We also went to his first ever kiddie party. He got bored at first, pero when the kiddie program started natakot naman siya sa clowns! haha pero he enjoyed with the other kids. 

And guess who almost took home all the balloo (balloons) in the party? Even the table centerpiece, hindi pinatawad. #kaloka

And remember dedi? still the best friend and he shares car, What I don't understand is bakit ganyan niya pinapasakay? haha

He's know exploring things. And iba-iba na talaga ang trip. Gawin ba naman bed ang basahan? 

And look who's so happy with the Mcdo Happymeal? 

Even the mommy is so happy with the happiness of my baby D whenever we open the box. 

Happiness in the box talaga. Kaso namumulubi na ako sa allowance ko kakabili haha. 

my baby D is no longer a baby after his 4th haircut. Big boy na noh?

 Taken before I leave for Davao. Made me realize that no matter what material things we give to our child, what they need is our presence at home. Ouchie!

But we can always make-up for the lost time naman and make quality memories with our babies. Like this baby kulambo that we turned into a tent. D enjoyed it. A lot. 

What D can say @ 21 months. (additional words)

• Cho-cho (our dog choco)
• Tent 
• Kabayo
• Laiyo (Lion)
• Cahl and Josh
• Truck
• Tayo (the little bus)
• Coyo, Leli, Pato (Pocoyo and Cast)
• Puti , Led, Lu, Yilow, Gee (Colors)
• Jobee  and Getti
• Pepent (says "present" whenever you call his name)
• Diong (Deion)
• Gala (Mommy G)
• Gicky (Daddy R)
• Ninong Vivo (Ninong Yvo)
• Tol
• Ju (Juice)
• Lih (lights)
• Chukie

Dear D, 

You are longer a baby now, but you will always be mommy G's baby patootie. Mommy and Daddy loves you so much, we are sorry that sometimes we are not with you to play, but we promise that as long as we can, we will spend time with you baby. Thank you for the hugs and kisses that made our tiring and stressful days bearable baby. Thank you for being mommy and daddy's source of positivity and inspiration. We love you so much baby. 

mommy G, 

Why Babies are so Cute?

Do you wonder why your baby is so cute?

Do you wonder why God gave you a beautiful angel that erases your stress, worries, problems in just one smile?

Why are they so lovable? huggable?

Why do you need to carry them in your womb for 9 months, and you need to suffer sleepless nights just to feed them, to nurse them, to change their nappies and other mommy duties?

 A mentor told me "Because babies are designed to teach you as a mother and your husband to love unconditionally, to develop the bond with your child so that when they grow up your heart is overflowing with love that even if they get rebellious or disrespect you, so have more than enough love to understand, forgive and love them just the way you did when they are still your cutest baby". 

Agree? Make sense right? It's so true, sabi nga nila ang anak matitiis ang magulang, pero ang magulang hindi kayang tiisin ang anak. Whenever I look at baby D sleeping, I always wonder why am I given such an angel, considering all my boo-boos in life. Now I understand more why I have overflowing love for baby D, I am so blessed (of course with having R as well). And now I know why in the eyes of a mother, her baby is the most cutest and beautiful. 

Agree? share your thoughts why do you think babies are so cute?

Dipolog City Wet Market

Yes, Almost a month ago, I went to Dipolog City for a two-day training. This was during the Zamboanga City siege, I know! katakot kaya? R and my family asked me 10x if I really need to go, or hindi daw ba makakacancel? R even asked me not to go, takot lang niya mawalan ng asawa haha! But the people in Dipolog assured us that Dipolog City is peaceful and nothing to worry about. And true enough we enjoyed our stay there almost, If only baby D did not get sick while I am away. 

This is my second time to visit Dipolog, and this place is one of my favorite. Life is so simple. People are accommodating, the slow paced life made me relaxed and wanna stay chos! My first time here, we visited Dapitan and Dakak, will find time to post the photos, promise! But for this trip, we opted not to go out often, be better safe at the hotel ang drama namin. But, but since city life in Dipolog is so simple that their central market is just a few blocks from the hotel, dun nalang kami namasyal. I enjoyed! from someone na nag-iinarte na wet markets, I appreciate their market there. Hindi mabaho, wala masyadong tao, hindi maingay and sobrang fresh at mura ng bilihin. Sobrang nagsisi talaga ako at hindi ako namili ng maraming dried fish! I thought kasi kasing presyo lang sa manila haha bad. bad. Lemme show you the photos?? Sorry if walang captions ung iba, because this was almost a month ago, inatake na ako ng momnessia! (excuses!)

 

Public transportation is more on habal-habal. 

Freshness! I think this is tuna. 

Fresh dalagang bukid. 

Ganyan kalaki mga fish, parang buto ng pigs mga bones nila. 

Galunggongs!

Dried Fish for P70 per kilo (I thought pareho lang dito P120 per kilo pala)

Veggies are packed ready for kilawin! 

Seaweeds! P20 per kilo. 

Bananas!

Durian madness! we ate this by the sidewalk. sarap. (wag lang amuyin)

Our last night was spent out din naman. We went dinner to their famous dampa in Dapitan City. Yumminess the food. Mindanao and Visayas regions talaga are the best in fresh seafoods. 

Restaurant by the bay. During day, you can have lunch by the boat cruising by the bay. 

Native table settings. 

We love the packaging of the spoon and fork. Muntik na maiuwi. 

Spicy Crabs.!

This is heaven. Grilled banana split with vanilla ice cream. 

Dipolog and Dapitan City are one of the simple yet beautiful places i've been. Must visit. 

Mommy Sweetie is back!!!

I know! I've been MIA for more than 2 weeks and forgive me for my negative vibes last post. Work and school was hell. Now I understand the sentiments of parents working hard to send their children to school, working students who wish for more extra hours a day and of working mothers. At kung ang drama ni R ay "ang hirap magpaaral ng matanda" ako naman ay "anghirap mag-aral ng matanda ka na!" hahaha. R sent me to school and because my semester is officially over yesterday... I am now waiting for my reward, my Tory Burch Bag! I worked hard for that, yan ang motivation ko everytime pagod na pagod na ako from work at may papers or exam ako haha #kababawantalaga.

I am now so near, yet so far in my impulsive dream. When I was young, I really wanted to be a journalist specifically a broadcast journalist yan talaga ang ultimate dream ko. But when I entered college I realized I wasn't for that field and enjoyed being in Development Work. I envisioned myself leading an organization where I can help and empower Filipinos makabayan talaga ang peg ko. But fate has other plans, just before my graduation, my family needed me to support them financially so I need to look for a job immediately and landed to a position in training/hr function and the rest was history. I realized that training has a lot of opportunities to offer, but it needs constant improvement, there will be a time that you need to reinvent yourself so you will always have the competency. At dun ko na naisip and impulsive dream ko, to be a licensed teacher. And let's see what will this new field has in store for me. For now, I am waiting for my grades, and then I'll see if I should take the LET exam this January na, #prayinghardforsign.

Anyway, why is my last post so negative nga ba? this blog is supposed to be full of positive vibes and full of happy memories of my family and baby D. Ayun na nga, I'm back to travelling again, well I like to travel, thats why I love my job pero iba na pala if you are a mom na. It's so hard to leave baby D even if 2-3 days lang, specially when he's sick. I felt so bad that I wasn't there to comfort baby D in times that he needed me most and sobrang nakakaguilty when I went home with a pattottie baby and muntik na ako hindi makilala #workingmommyblues talaga. Iniisip ko nalang, I need to work to provide him all he need and all he want. Yun lang, we know naman that material things are not enough so I made sure that every weekend or nightime is a quality time with baby D. Minsan lang sila dadaan sa cutest stage na yan, and I don't wanna miss it kasi i'm studying, kasi i'm working, kasi i'm tired ayoko ng gnun so now I'm really.. really learning how to handle everything and muntik ko na nga makalimutan may asawa din pala ako haha buti nalang mahal na mahal ako ni R. (love you babe..!)

The last 2 weeks was so eventful, I had a lot of learnings, realizations and cute stories of baby D that I want to share. And sana the long weekends coming and my migration to another lappy will enable me to update this nearly forgotten online diary of mine. I have a lot of plans. Sabi ko nga, I need to reinvent myself, haha sana naman this is not yet a sign of midlife crisis. No not yet.

Today, I realized that we all have the power to say no if we feel or know that we have reached our limits. We are just humans that has limitations and we should know when to stop.  Kagaya ng pagkain sa eat-all-you-can dinner, you should know when to stop even if there are a lot of food choices that you wanted to try. There will always be another time and one should know how to prioritize, kung ayaw mo magsuffer ng impacho haha. Seriously, we can only take so much within our plate, and getting work more than your limit will just compromise other work. So we should learn how to say NO.

Laters,

G