On Traveling and being Scared

Today marks my first travel (because of work) by plane for this year. This is not my first time, but this is the first time I felt so much scared riding an airplane. Like I wanna back-out, like I almost asked my superior to go instead and I almost prayed so hard na sana macancel and training.

Being a training offcer of my company took me to a lot of places in the Philippines, I enjoyed it and travelled to most cities I dreamt of week after week. But today is different, I am looking for the same excitement I usually feel every time I start packing my things, but its nowhere to be find. 

Yes, I arrived too early for my flight at the airport, but its because papa needs to drop me early to avoid traffic. But why am I so scared?

Is it because this is my first time to the place I am headed to? I should be more excited. 

Is it because the plane will be small? I think a bit. 

Is it because I will be doing two trainings simultaneously? Laziness. But I did three before. 

Okay, maybe its because I am now afraid of leaving D behind, afraid of the crashing airplanes, afraid of not be able to go back and hug R and D. I have my insurances placed, but hey I have so many plans and so young. OA I know, but is it bad to be scared? Doest it make me less of a person? Oh well someone tell me what I feel is normal. 

Afraid and scared

G, 

P.S. As of the posting time, I arrived safe and complete here in Naga. I typed the draft while waiting at the airport. I am here, it is a beautiful city and I can't wait to explore it.